prayer

I don't believe I have ever asked anyone to pray for me. Until today. I need anyone who believes to please pray for peace of mind. I am overwhelmed by the job situation here in Bloomington and the feeling of hopelessness that comes with it. I know there are worse things in life... I could live in Hadi for one, under rubble. But in our society, we have become accustomed to living double-income lives. Even though each of our incomes is not a lot, combined it isn't too bad. The thought of potentially living on one part-time teacher's salary (about $14,000) next year scares the shit out of me.
Anyway, I think this song sums up how I am feeling right now. I feel like I am just one more piece of bad news away from losing it.


I am going to think of the good things. I have a house, a job (for now), clothing, heat, electricity, a blind dog, a husband, a working (needs repairs) car, good appliances, a computer, money in Sparky's savings, pretty dishes (shallow, I know), a new-to-me entertainment center, nice wedding gifts, a wonderful vacuum, weekend trips to car shows, a hot water heater... ok, I am feeling better. But I noticed that I am listing mostly stuff. I don't need stuff. I need to get over it. What do I really need to live? happiness. you can't buy that.