Wednesday, February 17, 2010


I don't believe I have ever asked anyone to pray for me. Until today. I need anyone who believes to please pray for peace of mind. I am overwhelmed by the job situation here in Bloomington and the feeling of hopelessness that comes with it. I know there are worse things in life... I could live in Hadi for one, under rubble. But in our society, we have become accustomed to living double-income lives. Even though each of our incomes is not a lot, combined it isn't too bad. The thought of potentially living on one part-time teacher's salary (about $14,000) next year scares the shit out of me.
Anyway, I think this song sums up how I am feeling right now. I feel like I am just one more piece of bad news away from losing it.

I am going to think of the good things. I have a house, a job (for now), clothing, heat, electricity, a blind dog, a husband, a working (needs repairs) car, good appliances, a computer, money in Sparky's savings, pretty dishes (shallow, I know), a new-to-me entertainment center, nice wedding gifts, a wonderful vacuum, weekend trips to car shows, a hot water heater... ok, I am feeling better. But I noticed that I am listing mostly stuff. I don't need stuff. I need to get over it. What do I really need to live? happiness. you can't buy that.


Anonymous said...

First of all you already lost it. Second of all, you forgot the rest of your family.

Sarah said...

um... I meant lose it again. I didn't forget the rest of my family, I was just listing the things that were around me at the time of the post... hince the "home" theme. But thank you for anonymously posting some more things I did wrong.